June is the time to bloom, to make changes, and to embrace new things in life. - Posted on 2012-07-11 by Ashley Cavasino

let me start by saying that I'm not much of a blogger, so this is new to me, but i think I'll like it. sharing my thoughts to whoever wants to get in my head for a second. and trust me, if you get to see my soul by reading this blog or any other blog i post, I'm not surprised... i have nothing to hide, and i display my heart on a flashing billboard everywhere i go, so please understand that no matter what i put on this blog, it all comes down to how it influences the music i make, listen to, dance to, cry to, laugh about, and share with others. 

My birthday is in June, and this past June i turned 19. it was nothing too special, just a regular dinner with the family. however a lot more went on in the month of June then my birthday. I changed my hair style to fit a more mature audience, and i began feeling an even bigger urge to make a change in other places as well. I started Recording Connection, which is the trade school that will teach me everything i need to know to be successful in the music industry as an engineer and/or producer. certainly they can't teach me  EVERYTHING, because a lot of it i must learn on my own. through my own mistakes and trial by errors, i will be able to develop the skills to reach my goals. my past educational behaviors have been that of a B student, and i got really good at perfecting the art of procrastination. But with this program i have entered, i know that the craft of procrastination isn't fit for what I'm trying to learn, and i know i will have to perfect the art of progression instead. i need to keep moving forward, and not look back. knowledge is the best thing i can gain my life right now, but like any 19 year old. there are distractions.

my social life is a touchy topic, mainly because everyone feels the need to boast their opinions about what they think my social life entails, when in fact, they have no idea what it's about. and honestly, I'm not even sure if I know what my social life is like.  i suppose it involves surrounding myself with people who are nice to me, who wont judge me, who care about me, and who inspire the creative fire within me.. but if that's the case, then why did i push one of my closest friends away? hew was a huge drive for my creative process, but i guess he also tore me down with competition. i may not be the most confident sometimes, but i ALWAYS get back up again and keep trying until i get it. But having a friend that made things more complicated then it needed to be, only made my mind crunch in confusion and it created a crack in the trust i once had for him. maybe that's why i had to let him go. without proper communication, nothing would work... and I've learned that this applies to friendships as well. So i have to tell him how i feel, but I'm not sure how. 

No matter what happens in the month of July, one thing if certain... changes MUST be made, and that's okay.